When i ho out of my house hang out, finding no one to rely on, nowhere to take a rest..I call out my god, may god be with me... i had better go out to the world meet people, talk with them, i will find that i am alone without anyone to help or support me...god is the one to help me, to be always with me, to sustain me when I am weary and lonely...
Give thanks to god...i feel great, grateful to god.
I wanted to give lecture in the past. But i realized when i finally gave lectures, it is not my job...i mean i was not good at them...it was not interesting, nor did i enjoy the job. Rather i found out that i liked to write things, essays.
reading the scripture, I think I can rely on God, rely on those believers, so-called Christians... Though I might be betrayed by people, of course, it is very natural that human beings are betrayed by theri very close friends, evern families... Even Jesus himself was betrayed by his best disciple. No wonder that I can be betrayed, I can be hurt by people, my close friends or famly members. But finally, I think the point is, the most critical and important thing is as the Ecclesiaties said, to belive in God, worship and love, serve the only God, and love my neighbors as myself...