Looking back from now, I used to grumble a lot when I was younger. I usually did not give thanks to my God as well as my parents.I always look up to high society people. Earning moer money, having higher social position, enjoying much selfesteem...But those things might not be true..no, must not be true...many such people are in agony and distress of their own, worrying about , for example, how to keep their wealth and position, how to maintain status quo...
Now I realize that I am really God' child, daughter and I am a king of God's kingdom. I want to live up to the bible, Jesus's teachings, never worrying about how to maintain my subsistence and how to be a leisure class person. Because I am already a king. I do not have any higher status to reach. Then remaining things for me to do is being with my God, enjoying my life working happily and taking a rest sometimes. What I want to do are writing e books, swimming, growing plants in my house and finally giving presents to people around me.
I really enjoy growing plants, looking at them quietly. That small thing makes me calm and happy. As I and all the human beings are part of mother nature, I feel at bome with green leaves and vital air that plants breathe out.
In gods love , I am always happy and merry. I have never been educated or taught to live happily and enjoy my life, be grateful for my daily routine.
I gusss I was supposed to get higher grade at the exams. When I grew up and become an adult, I was sopposed or expected to reach a higher position and make a lot of money as much as possible. So though I grew older, I didnot know how to live my life, how to get along with other people especially around me. I didn't know how to love my frienfds or colleagues. So there were not many people around me. I used to feel lonely and empty. Ididnot love or believe people around me. I always and usually suspect people and didnot give a damn many times. I would want to be loved and receive good things from others, rather than love and give first. I calculated profits and interests rather than enjoying being with other people.
So now I make up my mind to love others first and give them good things out of my possession. I intend to be grateful to my god for my daily routine and my circumstances.because I am in gods love and compassion, I can always rejoice in god , thank my god, feel good and happy, endure everything in my life as well as in this society.